I'm getting so nervous about

I’m getting so nervous about the move. I got the paperwork for my mortgage today and it’s sinking in just how much I’m going to pay over the next 30 years (assuming I live to be 70). I just barely scraped by with the downpayment and I still have the expense of actually moving.

On the other hand, I really hate paying over $800/month for a tiny apartment and not owning anything.